Mega Desk

Because I decided to procrastinate on everything in my life, this is where I will be spending the next 72 hours. Mega desk, anyone?

Happy Birthday, MereBear!

Balloons, originally uploaded by rustman.

wishing a happy happy birthday do a dear friend and fellow blogger, Meredith Elder. I couldn't be more blessed to have you in my life. The two years I was able to share life with you and Bryan were truly life changing. I look forward to being lifelong friends with you and eternal sisters through Jesus. I love you, Meldarrrrr!

Blue Valentine

I really like Ryan Gosling and Michelle Williams. If it hadn't been for Dawson's Creek I may not have ever really liked her but my sister and I used to love Dawson's Creek. It was kinda our thing growing up. And after seeing The Notebook, what girl wouldn't love Ryan Gosling? I am also a sucker for any love story so I am super excited to see them together in Blue Valentine which premiered at Sundance this year.

What movies are you excited to see?

Unwritten

07-06-10 Cause To Come Undone Without Warning Is To Lose What We've Found, originally uploaded by ƅethan.

So I had an advisement meeting with my school college counselor yesterday to plan out the rest of my courses. I had not realized until yesterday that I have passed the half-way point of college and am now on the downward slope. I have 2 semesters left until student teaching and 3 semesters left total until I graduate. SCARY! I have no idea what it is I actually want to do. I mean, I'm a special education major so the obvious answer is to teach a special ed. class. However, I know I do not want to do that. I wouldn't mind teaching at the highschool level and perhaps on the gifted side of things. Say. . . a high school english teacher at Hardaway? That would make life too grand.

But the problem is, I have spent my life imagining that I would be in some serious relationship at this point. I would be engaged by my senior year of college and getting married shortly thereafter. That is simply not the case. I have delayed making definitive decisions about my future thinking that whatever my husband's plans were would guide my decisions. I have no husband, boyfriend, or even prospective interests. I have me. I have God. And I have decisions to make.

In my view, I have a few options. I could. . .
A- Teach. I could stay in town and take any job I could get at a local school. I have connections here so it would probably be smart to use those while I can rather than leave and have less opportunity.
B- YoungLife. I could go on YoungLife staff and be an intern for 3 years and make a "career" out of it. Truth be told, I am most passionate about YoungLife at this point in my life. However, I am scared. I'm scared of rejection- of them not wanting me. I'm scared of the unknown- going somewhere completely new to me and starting a life. and I'm scared of failing- what if I'm not good at the staff side of ministry? Living with Aubrey- a current staff associate, I have a pretty good feel for what it would be like but all I know is Columbus.
C-Masters. I could get my masters in Christian Counseling or English Education. If I choose that route I'll have additional decisions to make like Columbus? Atlanta? Savannah? Athens?

All I know for now is there is a great white slate before me waiting to be written. I'm not anxious to begin my future now because I am content in my sweet little life at Peacock. I suppose I just am realizing that my future is not going to decide itself, i'm going to decide it with God as my aide. "For He knows the plans He has for me. . .plans to give me a hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11

She's Back!!

Millie is back! I cannot begin to tell you how thrilled I am. I was on my way to church this morning when someone called saying they had her. Of course, I turned the car around right then and went straight to their house. They said they had only had her for a few days but I'm not sure how true that is because it was only two blocks away. I mean, she didn't roam the streets for 6 whole days before being found, right? Either way, I am overwhelmed with thankfulness and love. My life is feeling normal again. Welcome back, chaos!

Staying Busy

I'm making sure to occupy my mind so I don't end up like this. I've even started making a skirt! If all goes well I'll be sure to share. It is currently day 5 of no Millie. I'm praying for her safe return. 

p.s. Isn't this blanket lovely? 

Down and Out

leave this town, originally uploaded by David Urbanke.

Will my rainy days ever end? I've had a sad few days. To start it all off, all of my roommates were away for the weekend and I was home alone. I enjoy time to myself but I also enjoy having someone to come home to. Needless to say, I was lonely while they were away. Then Saturday morning I was loading up my car to leave town and let my dog, Millie, out to potty before we left. I was in and out loading the car but the final time I went in she ran away. When I came back out she was no where to be found. I called for her for about 5 minutes and walked up and down the street. I drove to the park calling her name out of my window. I drove around the block still calling her name. She was gone. She had run away a while back before I had even gotten her a dog tag. After that I made sure she had a tag with my name and number on it. I expected someone to call within the hour saying they had found her but no one ever called. It's four days later and still no one has called. I've called the dog pound every day, driven to the dog pound, and put up flyers in the area. I'm more than a little anxious.
I'm devastated.
Then to top it all off, my wallet was stolen yesterday. I didn't notice until my gas light came on and I was looking for my wallet to fill my tank. That's when I finally broke down and cried. Not because of my wallet but because I was lonely, poor, and had lost my puppy. My sweet mom helped out a lot as always. It's comforting to know I have someone to fall back on when my world feels like it's crashing. Because that's exactly how I felt.

Inspired.

garlands!, originally uploaded by sparklecandace.

I've been eager for weeks now to make a banner! There was a very moving scene at the end of a movie i recently saw that left me touched and inspired. So I'm attempting to make a yellow banner symbolizing love as it did in The Yellow Handkerchief. wish me luck!

Happy 50th Birthday, Momma!

Birthday Cupcake - knitted, originally uploaded by wenjomatic.

plus one day. . .

Hammock Love

I love hammocks. I love hammocks so much that we have Hammock World over here at Peacock. It currently consists of two beautiful hammocks that are getting more use now that it's so lovely outside. Here are some other heavenly hammocks.

a visit to the pumpkin patch!

The cooler weather has finally started to arrive to the south- hoorayyy! In celebration of fall my friends and I decided to head to the pumpkin patch yesterday afternoon. Five of us plus Millie piled into Petunia and headed the the country to meander with other pumpkin patch go-ers! Here are a few photographs from our first autumn experience.

I don't know about you. . .

Red leaves/ 香山红叶, originally uploaded by Luo Shaoyang.

but I am excited about Autumn! I'll be by later to tell you about a fun fall adventure I had today.

something beautiful

I've spent the past year or so following a blog or two after stumbling upon one by accident. Since first discovering the art of blogging I have become slightly obsessed. I follow nearly 15 blogs on a daily basis and spend endless hours searching for things I would put on a blog should I ever begin one. Well, I've made the great leap of faith! I'm starting a blog. I am intentionally setting zero expectations. My only goal is to create a place for myself to post thoughts, ideas, and all things beautiful.

I think there is something beautiful to be found in all places. in people and places. in art and books. in disasters and miracles. in the old and the new. in the simple and the complex. in me and in you. look around you- where do you see beauty? a penny for your thoughts.